Whoever She Is

-stop making up stories
-stop trying to make my life misserable
-your a terrible father
-if im that much of a problem ill leave
-you didnt need to fight for custody of me
-you need to learn that when i say i dont cut it means I DONT CUT!
-your blind!
-i cant belive your fabrication of events that never were is stronger then you trust in me
-youve stabed me in the back before and you wil again if i give you the cance why am i suprised?
-this is why you have no family or firends left, you drive away the people you had
-why did you alienate your siblings if your life goal was to alienate your now ex wife and children?
-was it your life goal to be a fifty year old bachelor whos entire family hates him?
-i hope your not expecting me to ever live at your place agai, cause i wont.
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sorry you guys have no idea whats going on but im going through family drama garole! involving my dad making up stuff telling my mom these events that he thinks happened but never did and making me look like a mentaly ill failure at life.  none of the above i directed at you guys! i love you guys! :D on the plus side i got a hair cut today they cut off 10 inches

why am i suddenly getting so many friend requests? i dont care it makes me feel special.. its just weird... im not used ot peopel wanting to talk to me or be my friend (real or vertual) so im a lil creeped out... so how did you all find me? and why add me?

is to damn short!
why must the nice die young and un justly while the douche bags of the world are aloud to live and harass garrett at his brothers birthday party? why cant i be with my brother when his best friend just died? why the fuck must the nicest kid on earth have cancer? fuck this! im outta here, and to anyone who gives a shit, crying sucks! i hate it!

Rest In Peace Codsters, miss you already!

guess the lyrics? im bored!!!! itunes is on shuffle lets see what we get...

1. The partys busted up before it ever starts, ill never let you go. Summer Hair = Forever Young- The Academy Is...
2. everytime that i look in the mirror with all these lines on my face growing clearer. (good luck! :P) Dream On- Aerosmith
3. the blood on our hands is the wine, we offer a sacrifice, come on lets show, let me love.
4. shes just a friend you see you always agree, you know i lie but you still trust me. Now That Were Done- Metro Station
5. i found the cure to growing older and your the only place that feels like home. I Slept With Someone in Fall Out Boy and All I Got Was A Stupid Song Writen About Me.- Fall Out Boy
6. welcome to the story of my life its to short to not think about everything thats right and that you being my my side. We The Kings This Is Our Town
7. oh how i wish you could see the potential. I Will Posses Your Heart- Death Cab For Cutie
8. take out of your wasted honor every little past frustation take out of your so called problems better put them in quotations. (Done judge me!) Say- John Mayer
9. theres a story at the bottom of this bottle and im the pen Dear Maria, Count Me In- All Time Low
 10. you kept your word and got me through these years all i ask is that youll be there when i return. Thi Is Our Town- We The Kings
11. livin easy livin free a season ticket on a one way ride (old skool!) Highway To Hell- AC/DC
12. now here we go for the hundreth time hand granade pins in everline. Bleed It Out- Linkin Park
 13. but ordinary is just not good anough today alone im thinkin why is superman dead?
 14. in a vee neck tee shirt and nothing more not a single tear running down her cheek A Story To Tell Your Friends- Every Avenue
 15. im writing this letter and wishing you well.Mama -My Chemical Romance
 16. Cause im made out of glue anything that you might do im gonna do too
17. I thought i had my girl but she ran away my car got stolen and im gonna be late. Whoever She Is...- The Maine
18. I dont wanna go to london. London-Third Eye Blind
19. Your no jesus no your no fucking elvis. Megalomaniac-Incubus
20. you know your french well, didnt take any desicion so far hit them like a frieght train
21. is it over yet, when she spent the week in bed cause all your wrongs are wrond ang you cant make em right. Electric Hearts-Cash Cash
22. just not to close to close, i just want to bring you down so badly.Make Damn Sure- Taking Back Sunday
23. damn right i was talking shit i told your man so you would hear it.- Hollaback Boy- Cobra Starship
24. you think im stupid but the truth is its cupid baby loving you has made me this way.(Haha.... yeah... dont judge!) Walk Away- Kelly Clarkson
25. so tell me what you want what your really really want. i want hu i wanna hu i really really wanna ziga say ah. (hellz yes!) Wannabe- Spice Girls
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we need to finish this!!!!!!! multi posting so once its solved on one site other sites will see the answers posted on:
Buzznet, Movingalong, Themainefans, Mibba.

By mibba... it easier to read and post stories ther but no need to worry! im still gonna be here! :P
http://member.mibba.com/81387/

not h&j but my personal one i ask that you read the blog i got shit going down and so yeah....

ok so latly ive been getting alot of friend requests... its kinda weird not gonna lie but i dont mind! heads up to the newbies to my page i have a bull shit tollerance of 0 no hating (Miley Cyrus and The Jonas Brothers are exceptions :P) no being in anyway mean or rude to the MAFIA ok? were tight and we stick together! if you spam me, even once i will delete you and never re add you. if you wanna read my fanfic, fine but comment it please! it makes me want to write more and it makes me feel special oh and my fan fic is the one place you are aloud to hate! please yell at me if its terrible! i dont want your sympathy! if i post a journal with my personal life in it (prolly wont but if i do) dont be sympathetic it makes you look like a kiss ass and i dotn like lip stick on my butt :D and deal with my obsessive border line stalker like behavior! dont like it leave! heads up bitch i dont live to please you (victorias line i just totally stole!) yes i know more about the maine and metro station then anyone should ask me if i care? im a bitch get used to it and get over it i give you 1 chance dont fuck it up cause second chances dont exsist! i hate you always will sucks to be you. so yaeh have fun and ill talk to you when ever im on! :D
~Canada
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btw if you dont know who the MAFIA is dont ask... i wont tell ytou your wasting pixels!

HAPPY "...AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR" DAY!
yaeh so where to start... i woke up this morning, went to go into the bathroom and zack desided to get up like an hour early and take no joke 20 minutes in the bathroom....no joke! ok so blah blah blah i go to school get out early cause its a banked day cause were cool like that go to best buy.... no EP :( go to my moms work go on the computer and look for a record store there are like 5 with in walking distance, now mind you i hurt and posible tore my ACL about a week ago and i wear a brace on it for now. and its about 55 degrees and in wearing a GK shirt, and soccer shorts. everyone can pull it up but they dont have it stalk "well order it for you" fuck you i want a physical copy in my hands the day it comes out!!!!! thats how i roll so "come hell, high water, cupcake lovers or shake it fans im getting a copy today" is what i texted brandi i get home and bridget fro fearless about an hour after i IMed her IMed me back saying i have to buy it online... lame! so im getting it with the lame peter got high and thought this was a good idea scarf..... seriousely a scarf? so i figured someone got high and thought it was a good idea... general consesis... it was peter! love ya buddy :D
I FOUND HEAVEN!!!
huge wall to wall with CDs everything i mean everything except the hexagon.... yes i checked! the have breath carolina even! i love that place! so many CDs Brandi i have to take you there to spend your life savings! so i went to target since i have walked 2 miles to find this CD before having to turn back. and got Boys Like Girls self titled, We The Kings self titled, and Mayday Parade- A Lesson In Romantics. so 33 dollers 4 miles and one disapointed person later thats where were at...... oh but its not all bad news no.... new CAsh CAsh full length. whos ecxited? i am!!!!!
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this is my myspace blog about it, i can tell you guys more about my treck around pasadena and shit if you want... comment this up!

i will post the second half of the first psrt cause buzznet was being an ass hole last night but i havte to stop watching youtube and get my aass over to my history homework... to bad van gogh doesnt sing/dance or pick onjack baraket why must alex gaskarth be so damn funny?moh and i banner would be nice at some point! :P

buzznet wont let me post it.... ill email it just ask!

“CATHRINE SARAH KIRCH DOWN STAIRS NOW!!!!” erg. Can’t winter break last one week longer? I don’t want to go to school, not with out John to get through Anatomy and Physiology with out falling asleep. Mr. Korcose was so boring! John’s stupidity was the only thing that stopped me from a hour long nap and an F in the class. I grab my black, grey and white checkered comforter and throw it on the floor, if I was going to school, mom was making my bed. I grab a pair of black skinny jeans that appear to be clean off my floor and a yellow Set It Off shirt Tim got me for my 16^th birthday two weeks ago, grab my lanyard with my name tag attached, my glasses and phone.

“Ha, better luck next time lil bro.” Tim ruffles Pat’s hair and takes a huge bite out of the last muffin, blueberry, my favorite. He looks up mid bite and lowers the muffin. Tim holds the muffin out to me with an apologetic look on his face I shake my head and grab a granola bar.

“Where’s my iPod Pat? And you’re driving me to work after school, so tell your loser friend of the week you can’t hang out after.”  I say on my way to the hall closet where I grab my black Jansport backpack of the hook and put my Hot Topic lanyard in the outside pocket.

“Umm…. About your iPod…”                                              

“I swear to god Pat if you broke another iPod I will hang you by your ears!”

“I didn’t break it, JF did we were at his place and he plugged it into his computer to rip a song and now it wont work.” I turn around to my twin brother standing looking more pathetic then a puppy outside in pouring rain about to be eaten by a lion, if that’s even possible. I push my blond bangs out of my eyes and look at him through my black rimmed glasses.

“I don’t care who broke it! Where is it so I can try and fix it!?” Pat reaches into his back pocket and returns with my silver third generation nano iPod in his harm, my blue headphones attached. I snatch it out of his hand before he can do anymore damage to the poor thing.

“Get the keys before were late, bye mom, bye Tim!” I say to the door as I head out to the black Audi me and Pat share but Pat drives, do the math on that one. I spend the ten minute drive to school futzing with my iPod doing anything to get it to work, but it wont. Me and Pat may be twins but were so different it’s ridiculous! His brown wavy hair, deep brown eyes and bold features contrast my naturally blond hair and green eyes, my features are soft and subtle. We pull into  a parking apace and before the car is turned off I grab my jacket, backpack and iPod and am head towards the front of Tempe High school. I see Jenna, Brianna and Jared standing around in out normal spot under one of the many oak trees that separate the school from the public sidewalks.

“Ryn!” Jenna screams before I can sneak up on Jared. Yup, Ryn, my parents have a thing for three letter nicknames and since Cat and Pat is just creepy, they chose Ryn. We exchange hellos and catch up on what we’ve missed over the break. Jared is a senior and the rest of us our Juniors. Jared’s also friends with Tim. Me, Jared, John, JF and Tim are all good friends. JF and Tim have been really close forever and graduated last year. The bell rang and I headed down the long hallway that smelled of dirt, BO and cheep perfume, oh how I didn’t miss this place. Lucky John, skiing in Aspen. I think as I take my seat in the back of Korcose’s room and prepared for a lot of texting to stop from sleeping when I fest a pair of freezing cold hands over my eyes. “Chewy, what did I tell you about touching me! I’m so going to kill you!” I reached up to tear, what-very-well-maybe-the-biggest-creep-ever’s hands off my eyes but the second I touch the hands I freeze. They’re muscular, no way belonging to Chewy. I fallow the hands that are connected to arms and find a small woven bracelet on the wrist. I smile and turn around freeing my eyes from the hands that could only belong to one person. “I thought you weren’t going to be home for another week!” I say now face to face with my best friend.

“Shaun wanted to come home and see Becka and I can’t believe you thought I was that creep!” His ever present crooked smile sitting perfectly on his face, his disheveled brown hair in his hazel eyes, he shakes the hair out of his eyes and looks around the room. “Oh, and I wanted to make sure you didn’t fail too.” He whispers. I smile and stand up, we have a good five minutes till the announcements and all the bull shit the administration wants you to be interested in is over so I decide to catch up with the guy I haven’t seen or talked to all winter break. I sat on his desk, my legs dangling in the isle way and was about the same height as him. Being five foot two and him being six something it was nice to see eye to eye.

“How was Aspen? See any Abominable Snowmen?”

“Yes, but you know I touched him and my hotness melted him on the spot, we had fun, don’t think I could live with Dillion for another day though! Man that kid gets annoying.” I laughed, you couldn’t help but laugh at John, it was just the way he said stuff, it made you want to crack up, its like a super power. “How was your birthday? Sorry I missed it, but I hope my present will make it up to you.” His crooked smile back on his lips.

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part 2 in five minutes :P

She woke upon the couch in Jules’s room. TV still on, she feels something on her waist. His arm, she smiles to herself and slowly moves it so she can go turn of the TV she checks her phone one text message from Kels, heard what happened call me please! J.  She wouldn’t call, Kelsey always hears what happens now, but is never there to stop it. She feels all alone now, remembering the days when Kelsey was there to stop it, or at least make it seem better. She goes back to couch and curls up against Jules once again and for the millionth time starts to cry herself to sleep. She feels and arm reach around her and pull her close to Jules “It’ll be okay, go to sleep now.” He whispers in her ear and she does.

The next morning she goes to walk home, Jules by her side, when she gets to her door he fallows her in. she goes up to her room, locks the door and turns on music. He stands silently by the door, watching her, mesmerized. She grabs an old white tee shirt and a razor blade off her desk. He knows what’s about to happen. He walks up behind her. He won’t let her, not while he’s here to stop it. He reaches around her. One arm resting on her hip the other grabbing the blade.

I sit listening to Death Cab For Cutie and watching Hayley and Pat act like a couple. While Garrett plays Star Wars on his ancient Game Boy. I have to break this silence. “You know they have ones with color, and touch screens and stuff now.” He turns to me and smiles

“Yeah but half the fun is trying to figure out what the hell the little blob is!” I can’t help but laugh. “So how’s cross country?” he asks nodding towards my bag.

“Good, where’s your bag?” I ask just now realizing he doesn’t have a duffle bag.

“umm… er…” he runs a hand along the back of his neck. “I’m not on cross country, my brother, Trey, is. I just run with them sometime.” Trey was the fastest kid on cross country everyone knew who he was, but he looked nothing like Garrett. I must have looked confused. “I know he has all the looks in the family.” He adds laughing.

“That’s not true.” I say, surprised by my own boldness. A site blush creeping across his face.

“What do you do when your not running?” he asks closing his game boy, and for the first time since I sat down takes his eyes off it.

“I used to hang out at a Carls Jr. back in La but now I just sit in my room bored out of my mind, ‘cause I have no one to talk to, or hang out with any more.” He listens to my rambling a smile starting at the corner of his lips and slowly transforming his face.

“Well, we don’t have a Carls Jr. to hang out in but there is some fun stuff to do in here.”

“Yeah, like 81.23” Pat says

“Except your brother would kill us if we hung out there, that’s where him and John and all there friends hang out.” Garrett says like its common knowledge. “Tell you what” He says turning back to me. “I’ll show you around Tempe, we have 3 bowling allys!” he smiles and his eye look so full of hope that if I said no I think he might cry.

“Sure, why not.” I say. RING. I grab my bag and head to English. Wait a second, did Garrett just ask me out? Did I just agree? What is going on with me?

“Hey, your in my English class?” I turn around, no way, I nod and open my mouth to say hi but Mr. Jones had impeccable timing. “Open up your books to page 219….”